Do You Have the Patience for Me?

Many say to never pray for patience.
Because it will bring much suffering.
I have prayed for patience since I've been saved.
Yes, many events have pushed me to insanity.
But now I have patience to see, observe, and understand you.
I know you have a low capacity for.
and I blame myself for the most part.
Because I was never there.
I had let you down so many times.
But sometimes, I wish you would have waited for me.
Because I waited for you.
Everyone tells me to be more assertive.
Maybe I should, but that's not me.