Seethe Undying Memory of Love

Remembering the ones that I held close to my heart.
My beloved, I trusted her, because she saved my life not just once.
Whenever my beloved left me, so did our adopted and unborn child.
She wanted no child to hinder her desires.
For the unborn child, she faded away as if she was never existed.
I told the poor adopted child I would always be with her and I wouldn't abandon her.
During the night, as I slept, my beloved little girl ran away, and found a new father.
I suppose it was for the best.
I wept and beckoned to the Almighty, "Why?"
Finally, I was smote with fatigue and terrible pains to the heart.
Maybe God has finally had enough of my wailing.
I found myself curled up and hugging my pillow for comfort.
The pillow used to represent... Now it's just a lifeless sack of fabric.
I used to look forward to sleeping...
Because I always felt we could meet in a plane higher than of this material one.
Now when I sleep, it's so cold, dark, and full of monsters.
You aren't there to protect me anymore.
I wander the dreams alone now.
To fade away would be a blessing.
I know my unborn child is in the Heavens waiting for me.
I sleep again, praying I may not wake up.

What the Hell Are You Doing to Yourself?

Going back to memories of my second life.
Thinking of ending so many things.
Contemplation of the end can be....
So very liberating.
With a click of some buttons it can be all over.
A single leap to from...

What the hell are you thinking?

The Easy Thing to Do Now Is Cry

We came back as one.
We loved each other, or I thought we did.
I thought we were happy again.

You said your love for me was now gone.
You said you where sorry.
Sorry for breaking the promise.
You hated hurting me.

It'll be okay.

Plain and simple.
It'll be okay. I still love you.
Yes, I desire you to be my friend.
If you are reading this, now you know my answer.
Don't feel guilty. It'll be okay.

I will leave you alone as you wish.
I always have open arms. Whenever you are ready, I am too.

Take care, and be safe.

What Happened to Our Vows?

I never thought it would happen. Especially the way it did.
Then again, it was foolish of me to think like that.
I always said I was naive and it turned out I was right after all.
But why did it end this way?
What happened until death do us part?
What happened to the Love that will surpass even death...?
What happened to my light?
The light that would have guided me out of the dark?
I even gave you what was precious to me.
I gave you.... Never mind.
Truth is, I made sacrifices for you, and alas you did so much too.
You gave up our unborn child, but for what?
You said you were holding me back from happiness, but every moment I spent with you...
I was free, I had my wings, I swear I could fly.
In the real world, no other girl would have given me a second glance.
Because of my looks. It hurts.
Not allowing me a chance to love or to be loved.
But you...
You gave me something I never was given.
That chance to love. That chance to be loved.
I had so much to give; it burdened me.
Then when you came and took the weight off my body...
Now I feel as if you took too much and crashed...
I blame myself...
Forgive me, My... It can't be said.
My heart weighs heavy for you.
Now I wonder, was it because of the look that I donned to hide my true skin?
Was the only reason you chose to give into me was because of the shell?
I want to let you go.... But I can't.
I slept with tears that night.
No more, "Kisses and Embraces <3" or, "See You Soon."
Just, "Take care.... and sweet dreams."