Tuesday, May 19, 2009

So Begins the Next Chapter.

As this chapter ends, so begins another... This school year went by much faster than I had anticipated. So much has happened in as little as 9 months. Countless conflicts, I finally got my 1st girlfriend, went through 3 more heart aches, had myself quite a few pitty parties, turned 17, made a lot of new friends, gone to a wedding.... so much more to say.

Hopefully this summer will be fun filled. Hopefully not just work haha.

Friday, May 15, 2009

For The Memories....

When I see all of you, my mind starts to wonder. Maybe it will be a good day…

Maybe all of you will wave to me and greet me warmly, like you all used to…

As I approach, praying my worries away, you all walk away…. It’s not fair… What have I done?

Tears start to well from my eyes and my soul cries for them,

“Please don’t go!"
"Please don’t go!"
"What have I done?!”

I am left alone to rot and wallow in the oblivion of solitary with black and heavy shards of my heart.

I walk down the road of forsakenness, wishing I could hear the song I most relate too.

Glass Skin…

Memories start to spawn within my mind, eating away my sanity, and destroying all that is me.

I attempt to regain some self-control, I dream of angels delivering me, from this Hell.

My eyes take in sight of all the caressing lovers, for the sake of sanity…..

Why don’t they stop?

Please… Please stop…. Please

Can’t you see?!
It tortures my soul!


“Oh my heart!”
“Oh my heart!”


I wish it just stop beating blood to my mind, so the memories of my forsaken friends and forsaken love… Could just die.

“Can anyone hear the screams of my heart?!”
“Can anyone hear the screams of my heart?!”


It hurts so much, I start to cry blood.

My blood taste so sweet, and my death will be my climax.

Is there a demon from within me?


Happiness and sadness lies to close….

My death will be a forgotten tragic memory , within the annals of all those who once loved me.

Until their skulls are burnt to ashes, and swept away along with the wind.

But I refuse to remain a memory!

As the memory of dies, my legacy will die as well.

“I will be more than a memory!”
“I will be more than a memory!”


What will be the proof of my existence, legacy, and legend, if it all disappears… with the wind?

“ I refuse to be waste of my God given blessings!”
“I will not allow my childish heart to kill me!”

I will carve the sins onto the pages of legends,

I will live with my work!

I will scream with this body of flesh, which separates my soul from Heaven and Hell!!!