Let's Bloom the Flowers of Attempted Suicide... (read Suicide is the Proof of Life, 1st)

Let us continue where I left off in the last blog...

Now... My love.
If you do not love me now...
Maybe you will wish you have once I am gone....
Writhe in Regret!
I now stare at the at the crucifixes around my neck.....
I see tears of blood running down my Lord's eyes.....

With gun in hang my hand, maybe I will end the pain.
The pain you left in me!!!
Fuck you!!! You never thought of me!
Ahhhh! Raaaaawrrrr!!!!!
My last thoughts of you filled with anger sorrow....
Maybe I will never be remembered?
Fuck it....
The Father,the Son, and the Holy Spirit
I pulled the trigger.
*click*
Nothing happened.....

Lord.... Have you given me a reason to live?

The 1st English Assignment from Mrs. Vaughn

The Autobiography
Hello there! My name is Chih-Chuan Chang. I was born in Taiwan, but I came to America when I was about six years old. In America, I lived in a Chinese restaurant named, “Hunan Inn,” until it was closed for business. I now currently reside at the Chateau LaFitte apartment complex. My parents are in some way divorced. My father wanted to go back to Taiwan, while my mother decided to stay here, in America, with me and my sister, Tiffany Chang. Now you must forgive me, because my writing can be at times, very deep and sometimes morbid. Now that you know a little it about my background, let us learn about my personality.
My most prized possession is my spirit. I received this gift at January 14, 1992. The first reason I was given this gift is because no soul can live a good life without anyone to accompany and guide it. The second reason I was given this gift is because the giver of this gift, The Almighty, has a purpose for me to fulfill in this world. This is my most precious gift because it contains my talents, skill, and all my love for God.
The thing that identifies me the most are angels. Reason being, angels are known as a guardian, a friend, and guide to everyone and everything in the world. I was also once called an angel in disguise, so ever since then I had an obsession with angels; even my Myspace and Facebook have angels as display images. I’ve always been helping my friends in need and tried my best to guide and accompany them through their troubles like an angel.
Some words I live by are the lyrics to Strangers by Yoko Kanno and The Final by Dir en Grey. The lyrics to Strangers are important to me because it almost perfectly matches the long rode my soul and spirit have traversed so far trying to get into the Kingdom of Heaven. The lyrics to The Final are important to me because it reminds me the times I have contemplated suicide and there is always something to live for. It also helps numb or intensify any source of pain, I might be feeling. So the song has saved my life, or nearly ended it. Well now that you know a bit about me, I hope I can learn more about you. I’ll have you know though; that this is paper is only “The tip of the iceberg.”

Never Forget

The Gentle Heart.
The Loving Feeling.
The Little Puppy.
The Shadow.
The Ghost.
The Soldier
The Angel
The Sweetie
The Little Asian Dude.
The Freshman
The Chih :)

Love Me

Love me.

Because I love you.

La La Love Me.

Your words, so sweet.

I can't stop this one thought rushing through my mind.

I Love You

I Love You

I Love You!

Won't you take me now?

Take me into your world?

Or shall I take you to mine?

Where, I can be your king and you my queen.

Or You my princess and I your humble knight.

There is so much to see.

So little time....

But there is nothing to fear, because I will die for you.

Why?

Must I say it once more?

I love you.

Now you must only do one thing.....

Offer me your Trust and Love.