Reflect back in life. Back to your very first day at school. If you can remember that far anyway. Then continue forward until you reach today.
Can you remember all the people you have met?
Remember all your friends?
In my younger childhood days I can remember making many friends. But as we all grew up we all changed. So many of my friends now are sweet memories. I often wish I could see them again. We have come so far. We truely are blessed to have met so many people. I am overwhelmed by the number of friends I have made this year, but no words can decribe how I feel about how many friends I made in my entire life time. We still have many years a head of us. No matter how old you are. Death is just another part of life. So there is no need to fear death. Come let us face our Destiny that we have chosen in this life time.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Battle of the Polar Opposite Deaths
I feel Azrael's benevolence and love all around me.
I feel Azazel's lust for mortal blood.
I feel this battle raging inside.
Azrael fights for my salvation.
Azazel fights for my damnation.
I feel peace through kinship and friendship.
I feel pleasure through blood letting.
I have the desire to touch someone's heart through my love and kiss them through my lips.
I have the craving to rip out someones heart and have the taste of blood in my mouth.
I must control myself.
I must show all of myself.
I ask myself, "Who will win?"
I answer, "The one you embrace."
I feel Azazel's lust for mortal blood.
I feel this battle raging inside.
Azrael fights for my salvation.
Azazel fights for my damnation.
I feel peace through kinship and friendship.
I feel pleasure through blood letting.
I have the desire to touch someone's heart through my love and kiss them through my lips.
I have the craving to rip out someones heart and have the taste of blood in my mouth.
I must control myself.
I must show all of myself.
I ask myself, "Who will win?"
I answer, "The one you embrace."
Do You Remember Me?
Today, after school was dismissed, I sat outside on that stone bench.
The sun was in my eye, so I closed my eyes.
I was feeling the wind blow my hair and white T-shirt to-and-fro.
The sun's rays continued to beam down on my closed eyes and my vision turned bloody red, that's when I saw you.
I saw just the two of us waltzing under a crimson moon.
I stared into your eyes, and the whole world melted away.
We continued our dance, only to be illuminated by the crimson rays.
I was suddenly awoken from my state of mind by my friends.
As they continued to talk to me, I was thinking only one thing.....
Do you remember me?
The sun was in my eye, so I closed my eyes.
I was feeling the wind blow my hair and white T-shirt to-and-fro.
The sun's rays continued to beam down on my closed eyes and my vision turned bloody red, that's when I saw you.
I saw just the two of us waltzing under a crimson moon.
I stared into your eyes, and the whole world melted away.
We continued our dance, only to be illuminated by the crimson rays.
I was suddenly awoken from my state of mind by my friends.
As they continued to talk to me, I was thinking only one thing.....
Do you remember me?
The Three Symbolic Beasts of Life
In life you will find people who are either a sheep, a wolf, and a dog. Of course their are other branches to the tree, but I will talk about them later.
The sheep are people who wake up and go to work at 9 in the morning until 5 in the afternoon. They are the type of people who are innocent and can hardly fend for themselves. They can't get their head around committing acts of violence, drugs, rape, or anything that is evil in the world. But there a are handful of blacksheeps in the flock, they go against the stereotype, they are enlightened, they know the way of the deer. But these black sheep are very difficult to find, but on the other hand they out number the dogs on a 5-to-1 ratio. Unfortunately the white sheep still blanket the field. They would need abundant guidance to be able to stand up for their individuality. Most do not know they are called upon by the the Almighty and Destinies to serve the better good. They do not know the abilities they have within their soul and spirit. Unfortunately it only takes the slightest temptation to lead them into corruption, then eventually it will lead the way to the wolves.
The wolves are of course the predators. Their lives are almost all about preying on the weaker and defenseless ones. The sheep is their favorite prey. The wolves have no disipline, and rarely any smarts. It is only the Alpha or pack leader who has the knowledge, tatics, and most ferocity or subtleness of the pack. They too are called upon the Almighty. Also by the Fates. Their lives unfortunately are too dark, and their ears are deaf to hear their true destinies. They are too blind or arrogant to see the inner light that still glimmers in their dark world. It is not impossible to change their ways but, most improbable. But if they do change they will face hardships of change, but then they will rise higher than the sheep quickly and become the dogs.
The dogs are disciplined, honorable, loyal, loving, strong, sometimes wise, and partly domesticated. They wish to serve their masters and keep the peace. But they still have their instincts inherited from the wolves. Their instincts make their aspects just the same as wolves. The only thing they do not have is the urge to prey on the weak. Their entire life is devoted to protect those like the sheep so the sheep may continue their blissful and innocent lives. Unfortunately it is the most improbable if not impossible, to regain the innocence of the sheep again, but they only need to the small taste of corruption to start on the dark path in becoming wolves. It is hard to find the purebred dog, which are the individualists. Most have mated with other beasts so it is hard to find the pure breds these days. But even with change or purity their lives are very lonely. They can search entire lives just to search for love, but never find it. Then again, they are the ones that answer the call of their master, the Almighty and eventually their destiny. Most of them accept their fate. They are the ones that have the most affect in the world.
The sheep are people who wake up and go to work at 9 in the morning until 5 in the afternoon. They are the type of people who are innocent and can hardly fend for themselves. They can't get their head around committing acts of violence, drugs, rape, or anything that is evil in the world. But there a are handful of blacksheeps in the flock, they go against the stereotype, they are enlightened, they know the way of the deer. But these black sheep are very difficult to find, but on the other hand they out number the dogs on a 5-to-1 ratio. Unfortunately the white sheep still blanket the field. They would need abundant guidance to be able to stand up for their individuality. Most do not know they are called upon by the the Almighty and Destinies to serve the better good. They do not know the abilities they have within their soul and spirit. Unfortunately it only takes the slightest temptation to lead them into corruption, then eventually it will lead the way to the wolves.
The wolves are of course the predators. Their lives are almost all about preying on the weaker and defenseless ones. The sheep is their favorite prey. The wolves have no disipline, and rarely any smarts. It is only the Alpha or pack leader who has the knowledge, tatics, and most ferocity or subtleness of the pack. They too are called upon the Almighty. Also by the Fates. Their lives unfortunately are too dark, and their ears are deaf to hear their true destinies. They are too blind or arrogant to see the inner light that still glimmers in their dark world. It is not impossible to change their ways but, most improbable. But if they do change they will face hardships of change, but then they will rise higher than the sheep quickly and become the dogs.
The dogs are disciplined, honorable, loyal, loving, strong, sometimes wise, and partly domesticated. They wish to serve their masters and keep the peace. But they still have their instincts inherited from the wolves. Their instincts make their aspects just the same as wolves. The only thing they do not have is the urge to prey on the weak. Their entire life is devoted to protect those like the sheep so the sheep may continue their blissful and innocent lives. Unfortunately it is the most improbable if not impossible, to regain the innocence of the sheep again, but they only need to the small taste of corruption to start on the dark path in becoming wolves. It is hard to find the purebred dog, which are the individualists. Most have mated with other beasts so it is hard to find the pure breds these days. But even with change or purity their lives are very lonely. They can search entire lives just to search for love, but never find it. Then again, they are the ones that answer the call of their master, the Almighty and eventually their destiny. Most of them accept their fate. They are the ones that have the most affect in the world.
This Reality, huh?
So this is your reality?
What a disappointment.
Come with me to find the life that was intended for you to live.
But first we must cross the circular plain of the world of the damned, so we may to reveal the sins you are capable of, and the punishment you will receive if you are idle.
Then we will climb the to the summit of Purgatory, so we may purge our selves clean of Hell’s air and repent for our sins. Then we will be enlightened by heavenly hosts.
Then we shall enter through the gates of Heaven. Learn of true peace and happiness. Praise our Lord God and his son. Then you shall see the life that your Maker has intended for you.
Then we shall return to your reality, for you must make a choice....
Live the life of joy and happiness as your Maker intended, or you can take the life, where you make the calls and you are your own god.
What a disappointment.
Come with me to find the life that was intended for you to live.
But first we must cross the circular plain of the world of the damned, so we may to reveal the sins you are capable of, and the punishment you will receive if you are idle.
Then we will climb the to the summit of Purgatory, so we may purge our selves clean of Hell’s air and repent for our sins. Then we will be enlightened by heavenly hosts.
Then we shall enter through the gates of Heaven. Learn of true peace and happiness. Praise our Lord God and his son. Then you shall see the life that your Maker has intended for you.
Then we shall return to your reality, for you must make a choice....
Live the life of joy and happiness as your Maker intended, or you can take the life, where you make the calls and you are your own god.
Who is the Shang Tirips Doog?
I hope you know what the name means by now. If you don't look for my blog about Shang Tirips Doog's name.
It's very hard to explain who he is. So to make things short lets say: As a human, he was a person who dedicated himself to Heaven, angels, Jesus, and God. He eventually gave up his life at the takeover when earth was taken over by demon machines. He eventaully was welcomed into heaven and given a choice to either serve God as an angel, or live happily in heaven as a saved spirit. As you might know he chose to become an angel. So he was reborn as a child of Mother Nature and Father Time, and made younger so he was to become a student in the academy for younger angels. After some grueling testing and trip to Hell, he became a Seraphim. The Seraphims are the angels closest to God, so they rarely come in contact with other angels and beings. But since he had a spirit of a human, he had freedom and freewill. Only a handful of angels in Heaven have freedom and freewill. So then after a few events and years in Heaven. Shang was widely known in Heaven, but he was soon tricked and sent back down to help the human race that now lived in a new world that lived about few thousand years into the future. This where his new journey begins.....
It's very hard to explain who he is. So to make things short lets say: As a human, he was a person who dedicated himself to Heaven, angels, Jesus, and God. He eventually gave up his life at the takeover when earth was taken over by demon machines. He eventaully was welcomed into heaven and given a choice to either serve God as an angel, or live happily in heaven as a saved spirit. As you might know he chose to become an angel. So he was reborn as a child of Mother Nature and Father Time, and made younger so he was to become a student in the academy for younger angels. After some grueling testing and trip to Hell, he became a Seraphim. The Seraphims are the angels closest to God, so they rarely come in contact with other angels and beings. But since he had a spirit of a human, he had freedom and freewill. Only a handful of angels in Heaven have freedom and freewill. So then after a few events and years in Heaven. Shang was widely known in Heaven, but he was soon tricked and sent back down to help the human race that now lived in a new world that lived about few thousand years into the future. This where his new journey begins.....
Pendulums of Life, The Pruning of Life, whatever you want to call it.
As a priest from my last private school said, our Life works like clock work, or if you're a gardener then your life works like a fruit tree. Sounds complicated and tasty eh?
Well lets first look at it in the eyes of a clock. Our lives swings like a pendulum back and fourth, to and fro. Well when we swing it one way it is when ever we have to upmost energy, great grades, happiness, and everything seems to go your way. Then when it starts to swing the other way it goes vice versa. Sorry I didn't pay much attention to the Pendulum explination.
Now in the eyes of a gardener. God is a gardener, when you produce the most fruit and large branches and leaves, is when everything seems to go your way. But when harvest season comes, it is when God picks your fruits, and prunes you up. Unfortunatly, it is when you have to work hard to grow again and produce more fruit to return to your former beauty. So the whole world seems to be against you. Everybody never wants to talk to you. You're making bad grades. Then God adds some fertilizer to you. This means you get blessings or a boost in life.
I am not sure if you notived a pattern in life and/or history. With every tragedy that has happened there is always something positive that has come out of it. With every positive event, there is a negative feedback. See now? Life works in a balance beam. Although we rarely ever look at it in that way. We always love to see things in a negative sense, it must be human nature. But it also possible to break from that nature too, for example people with a sunny disposition.
I believe I am in my pruning stage of life. Because I feel extremely neglected at school. My friend(s) would agree and feel same way. Whatever the situation there is always a silver lining. A glimmer of light in the darkness.
Damn this was suppose to be a rant, but I guess I love to balance things out. I love balance.
Well lets first look at it in the eyes of a clock. Our lives swings like a pendulum back and fourth, to and fro. Well when we swing it one way it is when ever we have to upmost energy, great grades, happiness, and everything seems to go your way. Then when it starts to swing the other way it goes vice versa. Sorry I didn't pay much attention to the Pendulum explination.
Now in the eyes of a gardener. God is a gardener, when you produce the most fruit and large branches and leaves, is when everything seems to go your way. But when harvest season comes, it is when God picks your fruits, and prunes you up. Unfortunatly, it is when you have to work hard to grow again and produce more fruit to return to your former beauty. So the whole world seems to be against you. Everybody never wants to talk to you. You're making bad grades. Then God adds some fertilizer to you. This means you get blessings or a boost in life.
I am not sure if you notived a pattern in life and/or history. With every tragedy that has happened there is always something positive that has come out of it. With every positive event, there is a negative feedback. See now? Life works in a balance beam. Although we rarely ever look at it in that way. We always love to see things in a negative sense, it must be human nature. But it also possible to break from that nature too, for example people with a sunny disposition.
I believe I am in my pruning stage of life. Because I feel extremely neglected at school. My friend(s) would agree and feel same way. Whatever the situation there is always a silver lining. A glimmer of light in the darkness.
Damn this was suppose to be a rant, but I guess I love to balance things out. I love balance.
See You Later, Never Goodbye
Once there was a young man.
He changed the world, not through peace.
He fought battles, many battles. What he fought for is forgotten.
At the end of his journey, he layed in front of a repentance tree.
His friends wept for him; his family appeared before him.
"Goodbye" his friends had said. And with that came tears of sadness.
"Welcome home" his family had said. And with that came tears of joy. And they walked away into a bright light.
The boy looked at his friends, and they all placed their hand in his.
He then said his final words and good byes to his friends.
When the next wind blew, the young man closed his eyes and breathed his last breath.
Now legend says while the friends walked away and took one final look back, the body was taken by the roots of the repentance tree and wedged into the roots of the tree. When the friends tried to grab his body. His whole body became incased inside a giant crystal, that cause the tree to become partly uprooted. But alas, none of his friends where able to set the young man's lifeless body out of the tree.
But this merely legend. The young man's legacy was forgotten and so was the site of the tree. The group of friends moved on with there lives, and forgotten most of the past. The war and the reason for it too was forgotten by many people.
The only thing that was remembered was the young man's last words....
-- "See You Later, Never Goodbye"
He changed the world, not through peace.
He fought battles, many battles. What he fought for is forgotten.
At the end of his journey, he layed in front of a repentance tree.
His friends wept for him; his family appeared before him.
"Goodbye" his friends had said. And with that came tears of sadness.
"Welcome home" his family had said. And with that came tears of joy. And they walked away into a bright light.
The boy looked at his friends, and they all placed their hand in his.
He then said his final words and good byes to his friends.
When the next wind blew, the young man closed his eyes and breathed his last breath.
Now legend says while the friends walked away and took one final look back, the body was taken by the roots of the repentance tree and wedged into the roots of the tree. When the friends tried to grab his body. His whole body became incased inside a giant crystal, that cause the tree to become partly uprooted. But alas, none of his friends where able to set the young man's lifeless body out of the tree.
But this merely legend. The young man's legacy was forgotten and so was the site of the tree. The group of friends moved on with there lives, and forgotten most of the past. The war and the reason for it too was forgotten by many people.
The only thing that was remembered was the young man's last words....
-- "See You Later, Never Goodbye"
Your Beliefs are Your Own...
Indeed the title is true. Your are right on your own terms. They are wrong on your terms and vice versa. No one is right. No one is wrong. We don't even know which religion is the right one. All we have is faith and hope. No matter what happened, no matter what everyone says, no matter what your faith says, your are your own person. God could easily change all that, but yet he chooses to let you choose your decision. You are your own person no one can change that and God doesn't want too. So the way you think, the way you chose to talk, eat, sleep, dress, pray, dance, whatever.... is your own way of living. You aren't right; you aren't wrong. Your decisions just reflect the way you will live. They are the paths of life which we all must take, they can lead you too happiness and/or sadness. Lately, there has been conflict among my friends among ways of living life. Again it is their choice to do things they do. Don't you worry about what everyone says. If your decision was in favor of good, then maybe later in life, those who made the choice in favor of bad might just wish they were in your side. Now Good and Bad are just words, who knows where language came from; how it was developed. Good sounds pleasent to the ears, bad sound unpleasent. If you teach your child the other way around, Bad might sound pleasent to the child and Good might sound unpleasent. Okay well my time is up. Now if you chose to take this blog into heart it is your choice, and it's a choice I hope you will not regret. Now live your life.
Where? Pt. I
Where is the world I once knew?
It was a world where everyone flew.
It was bright and beautiful.
Never too hot; never too cool, weather was never unusual.
It was filled with love and innocence.
Everything used make sense.
Nothing used to be in such a shamble.
Now everything I do feel like I am trying to gamble.
It was a world where everyone flew.
It was bright and beautiful.
Never too hot; never too cool, weather was never unusual.
It was filled with love and innocence.
Everything used make sense.
Nothing used to be in such a shamble.
Now everything I do feel like I am trying to gamble.
My Prayer, In Honor of My Friends
For all you who read this, you are my family.
O Lord God watch over me.
Forgive me for Sins I have commited in the past, at the present, and will in the future.
Forgive me, not spreading your word among my peers. This might be the most frequent sin I commit. I am weak and perhaps afraid of what they might think. Instead I believe that you have people believe in their faith for a special reason. I believe that everything happens because it is all part of your plans. No matter how horrid the crimes, it is all for a purpose.
Let everyday be filled of honor, never filled with shame.
Guide me to victory, honor, and love.
Lead me to the future you have planned for me.
Let your will be done, for I am only a lowly servant.
Let me hear your voice, but let me not be deceived by Satan and his fallen angels.
Lord God, give me peace of mind.
My heart grows heavy of sorrow.
Pain strikes my heart every morning.
It strikes me when I see my friends.
I feel loving and blessed toward all my friends. They are truely family.
Lord God, how must I obtain a happiness?
Happiness is a like narcotic to me, when I am blessed by you and given the chance to see my friends I am happy. When my friends are gone, all happiness fades. I crave for more. I crave for more time with my friends.
Almighty One, how may I obtain lasting happiness?
I know happiness on earth never lasts forever. I know time is short in our living clay shell and before we even know it we are with you again in Heaven. But, Lord I wish to remain happy in the time I have left.
Must I find my significant other? Lord maybe you already have our destinies intertwined, but my heart grows an ounce heavier everytime I lay my eyes on two lovers. How they embrace each other... The aura around them makes me want to cry crimson tears.
My God, teach me to tolerate the ignorance of others especially one the kids in my 5th hour class. Teach me to teach him the error of his ways.
Please Lord God, give me sight to the error of my ways.
Give me divine vision to see the angels and devils.
Give me more humility so I may not judge others.
Give me wisdom so I can teach others the successful way to life and also to outwit those who wish to disprove you of your own existence.
Give me strengh and courage to do your will.
Give me endurance to stand against temptation, pain and sin.
Give me power to stand against evil.
At last, if you will, a significant other, so I may learn love.
Lord God I invite you, your son, and all your heavenly army of angels to enter in my heart and reside forever and ever.
O Lord God watch over me.
Forgive me for Sins I have commited in the past, at the present, and will in the future.
Forgive me, not spreading your word among my peers. This might be the most frequent sin I commit. I am weak and perhaps afraid of what they might think. Instead I believe that you have people believe in their faith for a special reason. I believe that everything happens because it is all part of your plans. No matter how horrid the crimes, it is all for a purpose.
Let everyday be filled of honor, never filled with shame.
Guide me to victory, honor, and love.
Lead me to the future you have planned for me.
Let your will be done, for I am only a lowly servant.
Let me hear your voice, but let me not be deceived by Satan and his fallen angels.
Lord God, give me peace of mind.
My heart grows heavy of sorrow.
Pain strikes my heart every morning.
It strikes me when I see my friends.
I feel loving and blessed toward all my friends. They are truely family.
Lord God, how must I obtain a happiness?
Happiness is a like narcotic to me, when I am blessed by you and given the chance to see my friends I am happy. When my friends are gone, all happiness fades. I crave for more. I crave for more time with my friends.
Almighty One, how may I obtain lasting happiness?
I know happiness on earth never lasts forever. I know time is short in our living clay shell and before we even know it we are with you again in Heaven. But, Lord I wish to remain happy in the time I have left.
Must I find my significant other? Lord maybe you already have our destinies intertwined, but my heart grows an ounce heavier everytime I lay my eyes on two lovers. How they embrace each other... The aura around them makes me want to cry crimson tears.
My God, teach me to tolerate the ignorance of others especially one the kids in my 5th hour class. Teach me to teach him the error of his ways.
Please Lord God, give me sight to the error of my ways.
Give me divine vision to see the angels and devils.
Give me more humility so I may not judge others.
Give me wisdom so I can teach others the successful way to life and also to outwit those who wish to disprove you of your own existence.
Give me strengh and courage to do your will.
Give me endurance to stand against temptation, pain and sin.
Give me power to stand against evil.
At last, if you will, a significant other, so I may learn love.
Lord God I invite you, your son, and all your heavenly army of angels to enter in my heart and reside forever and ever.
The Forest of Repentance, the Tree of Nature and Time
My therapist told me to find the special place where I found peace. A place where I can go too, so I can escape from the world when I am most stressed. She told me it can be any place. SO I started telling her what I am about to tell you. Then she told me to stop and think of some place real. Not fantasy. So I had to rethink about a place. I chose an empty church, no one inside to bother me. Only me and God.
Well here is the place I was about to tell her.
See yourself in a white forest. Everything out of the forest is shrouded in darkness even the sky. All is visible is you and the forest.
This forest is thick with trees that bear no leaves, but the bark of the bare trees are colored with the purest shade of white known to man.
But the floor is so thick it's feels like you are walking on deep snow. You can't make out what is on the ground so you move into the heart of the forest. From what you can see there is light at the heart.
As you move closer to the heart, you finally see the light you saw earlier is a actually a ray of light that has pierced the black sky. The light is tinted with the shade of azure. You decide to head directly into the heart where the light seems to touch the ground.
As you walk miles and miles, the ray seems get brighter and larger You start to some large object in the center of the ray of light. You decide not to give up yet and continue into the heart.
In the heart of this forest, is a tree larger and more beautiful than any man has ever known. The bark seems as if it was made out of freshly polished silver. The leaves are a shade of white so pure that no man can imagin it. The azure light from the sky makes the tree to shine with an aura.
As you walk closer to the tree, the aura given off by the tree, reveals what is on the ground. The ground is littered with the white leaves laced with silver dust.
Then when you finally able to touch the tree, you see orbs of light of every diffrent colors known and unknown to man appear all around the tree. Each orb dances its own unique style. The orbs tend to follow and dance around you.
Then suddenly large shards of what seems like crystals fall from the branches up high from the tree. They too follow you, but doing a figure 8 formation. As you climb on to the trunks of the tree, a large crevice opens and in there you will find.... me.
This forest is my home. This tree is my sanctuary. I escape to here. I hide here. I atone from my sins here. I gain enlightment here. I talk to God here.
Well there you have it! Crazy huh? God Bless and have a good day.
Well here is the place I was about to tell her.
See yourself in a white forest. Everything out of the forest is shrouded in darkness even the sky. All is visible is you and the forest.
This forest is thick with trees that bear no leaves, but the bark of the bare trees are colored with the purest shade of white known to man.
But the floor is so thick it's feels like you are walking on deep snow. You can't make out what is on the ground so you move into the heart of the forest. From what you can see there is light at the heart.
As you move closer to the heart, you finally see the light you saw earlier is a actually a ray of light that has pierced the black sky. The light is tinted with the shade of azure. You decide to head directly into the heart where the light seems to touch the ground.
As you walk miles and miles, the ray seems get brighter and larger You start to some large object in the center of the ray of light. You decide not to give up yet and continue into the heart.
In the heart of this forest, is a tree larger and more beautiful than any man has ever known. The bark seems as if it was made out of freshly polished silver. The leaves are a shade of white so pure that no man can imagin it. The azure light from the sky makes the tree to shine with an aura.
As you walk closer to the tree, the aura given off by the tree, reveals what is on the ground. The ground is littered with the white leaves laced with silver dust.
Then when you finally able to touch the tree, you see orbs of light of every diffrent colors known and unknown to man appear all around the tree. Each orb dances its own unique style. The orbs tend to follow and dance around you.
Then suddenly large shards of what seems like crystals fall from the branches up high from the tree. They too follow you, but doing a figure 8 formation. As you climb on to the trunks of the tree, a large crevice opens and in there you will find.... me.
This forest is my home. This tree is my sanctuary. I escape to here. I hide here. I atone from my sins here. I gain enlightment here. I talk to God here.
Well there you have it! Crazy huh? God Bless and have a good day.
Unleashing a Hell Spawn (You Against The World pt. II)
They drew first blood!
Suddenly the world is different.
Now all you can hear....
The tearing of flesh and cracking of bones
Now all you feel....
Warm liquids splatter and ooze down your body.
Sharp pain thrives all over you.
Your limbs getting sore...Getting numb.
All you see...
You hands stained with red.
Limbs of your enemies flying through the air.
Your extended arms slash to your right, you see heads tumbling.
Your swing to your sweep left, you see fountains of blood.
Blood now raining down on you.
Blood drips off your hair.
Tears down your cheeks.
Into your mouth.
The taste of steel....It nourishes you.
You feel absolute bliss.
You want more....
You lust for blood.
What has happened, you ask?
You've lost your control.
You lost the feeling of love.
You lost your beliefs.
Love is no longer your sword.
Your beliefs are no longer your arrows.
You are no longer human.
You are a demon.
But you are the only one that survived.
Suddenly the world is different.
Now all you can hear....
The tearing of flesh and cracking of bones
Now all you feel....
Warm liquids splatter and ooze down your body.
Sharp pain thrives all over you.
Your limbs getting sore...Getting numb.
All you see...
You hands stained with red.
Limbs of your enemies flying through the air.
Your extended arms slash to your right, you see heads tumbling.
Your swing to your sweep left, you see fountains of blood.
Blood now raining down on you.
Blood drips off your hair.
Tears down your cheeks.
Into your mouth.
The taste of steel....It nourishes you.
You feel absolute bliss.
You want more....
You lust for blood.
What has happened, you ask?
You've lost your control.
You lost the feeling of love.
You lost your beliefs.
Love is no longer your sword.
Your beliefs are no longer your arrows.
You are no longer human.
You are a demon.
But you are the only one that survived.
You Against the World
Let the blood pump through the body.
Let the beads sweat pour out of the skin.
Let the heart beat to the rytheme of the drums.
The Stage is set.
Unsheath your love.
Draw your beliefs.
You stand alone.
You against the world.
Are you ready to fight?
Ready to die?
The beating of the drums cease...
The army that was in front of you is now around you.
So this is it.
Billions surround you.
Finally....
Your persecutors make their cry.
They want your blood.
Now they make their charge.
You alone can take on the challenge.
Just believe, then you are ready.
It's You Against the World, Baby, You Against the World
Let the beads sweat pour out of the skin.
Let the heart beat to the rytheme of the drums.
The Stage is set.
Unsheath your love.
Draw your beliefs.
You stand alone.
You against the world.
Are you ready to fight?
Ready to die?
The beating of the drums cease...
The army that was in front of you is now around you.
So this is it.
Billions surround you.
Finally....
Your persecutors make their cry.
They want your blood.
Now they make their charge.
You alone can take on the challenge.
Just believe, then you are ready.
It's You Against the World, Baby, You Against the World
My Views, My Words of Wisdom, My Beliefs, and About Me.
Let us see what I can do.....
1. I am very quiet for most of those who know me. I cannot keep a conversation going on unless the person I am talking too keeps asking me questions or just keeps on talking. I believe it's best save your breath, especially if you are in an argument, gossiping, or just complaining. If you nothing well to say about something then don't say anything at all. Waste your breath either on important issues, if you're feeling lonely, reaching out for a friend, or expressing yourself. Don't time arguing about "the best football team ever" or some God forsaken thing like that.
2. Be quiet, observe, and learn. You will be amazed by how much you learn about something, or someone. I have learned quite a lot about my friends and stuff (also enemies too) just by listening to them talk. But don't be a quiet all the time. You must spread wisdom and teach others about what you learn. Teach them why is it so good to listen.
3. Look at the bigger picture other than just yourself! Just look around you there are people that are in much more pain and less fortunate than you now. If you can at least read this blog then you are more fortunate then about a few million people in the world. A fool complains on and on saying what he thinks about how a certain thing must be, normally it is to just benefit him; a wise person listens and learns about new ways of thinking, and soon learns to look at a bigger pictures and understanding for all things, what will benefit all those around him. Just like the Devil and God. The Devil reasons like a man, but God thinks of eternity.
4. Judge on others and you will be judged after death! For those who judgemental people, that was a warning. People need diversity in their lives. In my school I don't see much diversity in a single group. I am not just talking about race, but also personality. What's wrong with making friends that black, white, Mexican, Oriental, and Middle Eastern? I know for a fact that Racism still rules the world. All I can do is hope and pray one day all that will change. For personality every likes people who are like them. But rarely find anyone is diffrent? You might learn something new if you do. You will also become wiser if you are willing to learn thing that are diffrent. Why is it hard to accept people for who they are? I have found many friends and they have very diffrent personalities. If everyone was the same then everything would be boring.
4.Religion don't get me me started, I know it's pretty touchy subject. But why is it so hard to tolerate someone who believes a diffrent religion then you? Do you really need to make war and kill to prove a point and force people to convert to your religion? I am sure thats not what your god wants; commit murder in your gods name, using your gods name as an excuse to kill.
5. Friends can help you or drag you in the mud. The friends you make will effect you one day. So many friends have become sweet; dear memories to me. I have been betrayed by so many people that I thought were good friends. I have also lost a lot of friends because I simply do not talk. To them every now and then, that is what really hurts me a lot. Sometimes you don't know whoyour true friends are because of pure ignorance. It's often too late whenever you find out who your true friends are... True friends are those who don't want you to be hurt and they care about your health and your decisions. Don't be angry about them giving you pointers they are often helping you.
6. About me.... Lets see. I have a very strange nature, I am Christan, I try to talk to angels, I try to be like an angel or like Jesus, I act cute and untainted (innocent) around my friends/killer at heart.
7. I am not afraid of dying, in fact I think there is a part of me that is waiting and wanting for it. I am not 100% innocent, I have been tainted by the world, especially by violence and some lust.
8. My life has been pretty sad, but I have friends so I know I am blessed. Especially this one friend, this friend has been a blessing. This friend is truely blessed in so many diffrent way.
9. My love life has been dead since the day I was born. I believe in sex only after marrage, unless I get raped.... I have been rejected 3 times by three girls. So that kinda made me want to give up on love. I know for certain it is because of my looks. Unfortunatly that is all people care about these days. I am often to shy anyway to really talk to a girl or even ask her out. I once fell in love with a girl, I really actually fell in love. I asked her out and even gave her a beautiful pendant. I know you can't buy love with jewelry, but anyway next time I saw her, I asked her if she would go out with me.... She rejected me; she told me that she eas to young, which I guess was understandable, but we were only three months apart. She was the first girl to reject me. So it did hurt, since she was also the first girl I ever asked out. I couldn't sleep that night. Lol enough about my sob story .....Kinda a touchy subject. But you can ask me all the questions you want.
10. I should say that I am a fairly interesting person once you get to know me. You should give me a chance. I am very polite, I am very open, I am very trustworthy, and I am a very loyal to a friend or someone I am in a relationship with.
1. I am very quiet for most of those who know me. I cannot keep a conversation going on unless the person I am talking too keeps asking me questions or just keeps on talking. I believe it's best save your breath, especially if you are in an argument, gossiping, or just complaining. If you nothing well to say about something then don't say anything at all. Waste your breath either on important issues, if you're feeling lonely, reaching out for a friend, or expressing yourself. Don't time arguing about "the best football team ever" or some God forsaken thing like that.
2. Be quiet, observe, and learn. You will be amazed by how much you learn about something, or someone. I have learned quite a lot about my friends and stuff (also enemies too) just by listening to them talk. But don't be a quiet all the time. You must spread wisdom and teach others about what you learn. Teach them why is it so good to listen.
3. Look at the bigger picture other than just yourself! Just look around you there are people that are in much more pain and less fortunate than you now. If you can at least read this blog then you are more fortunate then about a few million people in the world. A fool complains on and on saying what he thinks about how a certain thing must be, normally it is to just benefit him; a wise person listens and learns about new ways of thinking, and soon learns to look at a bigger pictures and understanding for all things, what will benefit all those around him. Just like the Devil and God. The Devil reasons like a man, but God thinks of eternity.
4. Judge on others and you will be judged after death! For those who judgemental people, that was a warning. People need diversity in their lives. In my school I don't see much diversity in a single group. I am not just talking about race, but also personality. What's wrong with making friends that black, white, Mexican, Oriental, and Middle Eastern? I know for a fact that Racism still rules the world. All I can do is hope and pray one day all that will change. For personality every likes people who are like them. But rarely find anyone is diffrent? You might learn something new if you do. You will also become wiser if you are willing to learn thing that are diffrent. Why is it hard to accept people for who they are? I have found many friends and they have very diffrent personalities. If everyone was the same then everything would be boring.
4.Religion don't get me me started, I know it's pretty touchy subject. But why is it so hard to tolerate someone who believes a diffrent religion then you? Do you really need to make war and kill to prove a point and force people to convert to your religion? I am sure thats not what your god wants; commit murder in your gods name, using your gods name as an excuse to kill.
5. Friends can help you or drag you in the mud. The friends you make will effect you one day. So many friends have become sweet; dear memories to me. I have been betrayed by so many people that I thought were good friends. I have also lost a lot of friends because I simply do not talk. To them every now and then, that is what really hurts me a lot. Sometimes you don't know whoyour true friends are because of pure ignorance. It's often too late whenever you find out who your true friends are... True friends are those who don't want you to be hurt and they care about your health and your decisions. Don't be angry about them giving you pointers they are often helping you.
6. About me.... Lets see. I have a very strange nature, I am Christan, I try to talk to angels, I try to be like an angel or like Jesus, I act cute and untainted (innocent) around my friends/killer at heart.
7. I am not afraid of dying, in fact I think there is a part of me that is waiting and wanting for it. I am not 100% innocent, I have been tainted by the world, especially by violence and some lust.
8. My life has been pretty sad, but I have friends so I know I am blessed. Especially this one friend, this friend has been a blessing. This friend is truely blessed in so many diffrent way.
9. My love life has been dead since the day I was born. I believe in sex only after marrage, unless I get raped.... I have been rejected 3 times by three girls. So that kinda made me want to give up on love. I know for certain it is because of my looks. Unfortunatly that is all people care about these days. I am often to shy anyway to really talk to a girl or even ask her out. I once fell in love with a girl, I really actually fell in love. I asked her out and even gave her a beautiful pendant. I know you can't buy love with jewelry, but anyway next time I saw her, I asked her if she would go out with me.... She rejected me; she told me that she eas to young, which I guess was understandable, but we were only three months apart. She was the first girl to reject me. So it did hurt, since she was also the first girl I ever asked out. I couldn't sleep that night. Lol enough about my sob story .....Kinda a touchy subject. But you can ask me all the questions you want.
10. I should say that I am a fairly interesting person once you get to know me. You should give me a chance. I am very polite, I am very open, I am very trustworthy, and I am a very loyal to a friend or someone I am in a relationship with.
The 1st Conductor
Well here goes everyone. As some people may know I don't know how to spell or write dialogue, I would really appreciate if anyone can give me any pointers about dialogue, thank you...?
Here we go....
Requiem- any musical service, hymn, or dirge for the repose of the dead.
Chapter 1
Finally church is was over, I thought to myself. I couldn't wait to get back home. Kael said he had something for me in my bedroom. I jammed my foot on the peddle of my Hummer and sped right on through traffic. While stopping at a red light, I start to think what the gift might be. As soon as I thought about Kael, a loud horn blared behind me. It was a one of those chemical waste factory trucks. I looked at the driver at the rear view mirror and saw he was topless and had bulky tattoo. The depicted a large grave stone with the writing, " R.I.P. Ur Mom!" Another horn blasted from the God Forbidden truck! I looked at his license plate, it read, " JO B 1925 7" Then his eyes met with mine in the rear view mirror. I gave him the finger and sped 20 miles over the speed limit out of the traffic.
When I got back home, I saw my foster parents weren't home. So I rushed up to my bedroom and found a silver box with a white silk bow on top. I took off the bow and unsealed the bow and found a knife. The sheer quality of this knife was incredible. The blade was made out of 1095 high-carbon steel, it was full tang, tanto tipped, 4 inch redwood handle with two 2 inch long stainless crosses for the hand guard, a brass knuckle was made together starting at the end of the cross and end of the tang. I looked into the box again and there was an 8 inch scabbard made with red wood and black steel around the lining of it. Along with the scabbard there was another item, a pure white silk hanky with words scribbed, "Let the your Voice be the instrument of God." I didn't know what I would say to Kael tomorrow. Then suddenly I hear a car pull up my drive way and voice saying, "Hey! Girl you better be practicing that damn song of yours for Friday!" Then I knew it was my foster sister.
Here we go....
Requiem- any musical service, hymn, or dirge for the repose of the dead.
Chapter 1
Finally church is was over, I thought to myself. I couldn't wait to get back home. Kael said he had something for me in my bedroom. I jammed my foot on the peddle of my Hummer and sped right on through traffic. While stopping at a red light, I start to think what the gift might be. As soon as I thought about Kael, a loud horn blared behind me. It was a one of those chemical waste factory trucks. I looked at the driver at the rear view mirror and saw he was topless and had bulky tattoo. The depicted a large grave stone with the writing, " R.I.P. Ur Mom!" Another horn blasted from the God Forbidden truck! I looked at his license plate, it read, " JO B 1925 7" Then his eyes met with mine in the rear view mirror. I gave him the finger and sped 20 miles over the speed limit out of the traffic.
When I got back home, I saw my foster parents weren't home. So I rushed up to my bedroom and found a silver box with a white silk bow on top. I took off the bow and unsealed the bow and found a knife. The sheer quality of this knife was incredible. The blade was made out of 1095 high-carbon steel, it was full tang, tanto tipped, 4 inch redwood handle with two 2 inch long stainless crosses for the hand guard, a brass knuckle was made together starting at the end of the cross and end of the tang. I looked into the box again and there was an 8 inch scabbard made with red wood and black steel around the lining of it. Along with the scabbard there was another item, a pure white silk hanky with words scribbed, "Let the your Voice be the instrument of God." I didn't know what I would say to Kael tomorrow. Then suddenly I hear a car pull up my drive way and voice saying, "Hey! Girl you better be practicing that damn song of yours for Friday!" Then I knew it was my foster sister.
Fall of the Higher Spirit of Good
Leaping from the gates of Heaven,
The Seraphim of Spirits,
Eyes closed, hands connected in prayer,
Praying, dreaming of enlightening the world with the Love of God,
Demons and the Fallen Angels watched in envy,
With a bow at each one's left hand and an arrow cursed with Possession, Death and Human Sin at the right, they take their aim.,
They take their shot, only five make their mark,
Human sins blackens his heart and turn three of his six wings black, with sin comes pain,
Crying out in sorrow, he hears the devils and fallen angel screech at him with hate and shame,
Devils say in hate, "Die and burn in Hell like a Human, angelic shit."
Fallen Angels, cry out in shame, "Forgive us! Forgive us! Please show us......show us..... how to love again, so we may return to the Heavens!
Hearing the cries of madness, The Angel of Benevolence, sees the suffering seraph,
With her bow at her left hand and an arrow blessed with benevolence, obedience, and love, at her right, she takes aim.
The arrow strikes at the seraphim's heart,
The poor angel's cries cease,
He sleeps,
Two demons are casted out of angel, Lust and disobediece, but not with out a price.... Slowly... Slowly... he takes form of an infant and is at last a mortal....
Now diving head on into a world full of chaos, his journey begins....
The Seraphim of Spirits,
Eyes closed, hands connected in prayer,
Praying, dreaming of enlightening the world with the Love of God,
Demons and the Fallen Angels watched in envy,
With a bow at each one's left hand and an arrow cursed with Possession, Death and Human Sin at the right, they take their aim.,
They take their shot, only five make their mark,
Human sins blackens his heart and turn three of his six wings black, with sin comes pain,
Crying out in sorrow, he hears the devils and fallen angel screech at him with hate and shame,
Devils say in hate, "Die and burn in Hell like a Human, angelic shit."
Fallen Angels, cry out in shame, "Forgive us! Forgive us! Please show us......show us..... how to love again, so we may return to the Heavens!
Hearing the cries of madness, The Angel of Benevolence, sees the suffering seraph,
With her bow at her left hand and an arrow blessed with benevolence, obedience, and love, at her right, she takes aim.
The arrow strikes at the seraphim's heart,
The poor angel's cries cease,
He sleeps,
Two demons are casted out of angel, Lust and disobediece, but not with out a price.... Slowly... Slowly... he takes form of an infant and is at last a mortal....
Now diving head on into a world full of chaos, his journey begins....
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Ignorant Faith
Wisdom Beyond the Age
Once lived a boy.
His wisdom beyond his age
He started to spread his wisdom at the age of eight
Continued even at 14
He was looked down on, but he knew it was his fate to be persecuted.
He preached on the roof tops of his schools.
He preached in the streets.
He preached at churches.
He preached at nations' capital
He preached at the world's capital
He spoke of Peace, Love, and Faith
He spoke about a world in turmoil .
He spoke of about love as if it was cure for the world's decay.
Through his word, all war stopped,
Through his word all hunger ceased,
At age 16 the world finally knew the true meaning of Peace and Love.
On the same day, he stood side by side with the Pope
The Vatican City was filled with faiths from all over the world.
There not even a single quarrel amongst the mass
No quarrels the "truth"
As the Pope and boy come to greet the people, a boy caught a glare and silhouettes of a man on the rooftop of a humble chapel.
The sound of thunder rung in the boy's ear
With a leap of faith, the boy took the bullet.
Blood splatted on the face of the Pope.
A hole gaped at the boy's chest,
His heart no where to be found, inside him.
The boy said these final words,"Azrael, give me Peace."
He then Fell into Eternal Rest.
On the 7th day of his death, he is cremated.
On the 8th World War III.
On the 9th the Pope became the new world leader.
Once lived a boy.
His wisdom beyond his age
He started to spread his wisdom at the age of eight
Continued even at 14
He was looked down on, but he knew it was his fate to be persecuted.
He preached on the roof tops of his schools.
He preached in the streets.
He preached at churches.
He preached at nations' capital
He preached at the world's capital
He spoke of Peace, Love, and Faith
He spoke about a world in turmoil .
He spoke of about love as if it was cure for the world's decay.
Through his word, all war stopped,
Through his word all hunger ceased,
At age 16 the world finally knew the true meaning of Peace and Love.
On the same day, he stood side by side with the Pope
The Vatican City was filled with faiths from all over the world.
There not even a single quarrel amongst the mass
No quarrels the "truth"
As the Pope and boy come to greet the people, a boy caught a glare and silhouettes of a man on the rooftop of a humble chapel.
The sound of thunder rung in the boy's ear
With a leap of faith, the boy took the bullet.
Blood splatted on the face of the Pope.
A hole gaped at the boy's chest,
His heart no where to be found, inside him.
The boy said these final words,"Azrael, give me Peace."
He then Fell into Eternal Rest.
On the 7th day of his death, he is cremated.
On the 8th World War III.
On the 9th the Pope became the new world leader.
The Name, Shang Tirips Doog, What Does It Mean?
Well let see... Where do I start.
OK
The language I am talking about is Mandarin Chinese. There are also many other diffrent Chinese languages. Most spoken is Mandarin. But many movies made in Hong Kong are spoken in Cantonese. That Chinese language is mainly spoken in the the southern part of China and Hong Kong. All that language problem probably dates back to the age of the Seven Warring States.
Shang means in Chinese has many diffrent meanings. So let me start off by saying, no one can really give you a name that sounds diffrent from your American name. i.e. If your name is Joe in english, then your name is Joe in Chinese, but just with a diffrent tone. What I mean by tone is the way your pronounce it. Let say you wanted to say "Hi" next thing you know you pronounce it differently and say "Screw you!" then suddenly you get a punch in the face. Chinese is a tone language, it's what makes Chinese the hardest language to learn to speak. If you don't learn Chinese as an infant you will never learn it in the proper way. SO thats why they has translations for traditional and simplified Chinese. Now the issue for a name. I am not sure how getting a Chinese name really works, but, I think, it usually has to do with becoming what you are named. Again for example, if you where named "Horse Shit" in Chinese then it might be that, You as beautiful and as graceful as a horse, but have a crappy attitude or smell.
Getting back on the subject, the "shang" I chose means "higher or high" I don't remember which one, I don't remember the other meanings for shang.
Shang = High
Now, Tirips and Doog are words spelled back words.
Tirips = Spirit
Doog = Good
So now put the name together......
Shang = High
Tirips = Spirit
Doog = Good
... it means High Spirit of Good! Now for those who want to know who is The "Shang Tirips Doog" you will have to wait.
OK
The language I am talking about is Mandarin Chinese. There are also many other diffrent Chinese languages. Most spoken is Mandarin. But many movies made in Hong Kong are spoken in Cantonese. That Chinese language is mainly spoken in the the southern part of China and Hong Kong. All that language problem probably dates back to the age of the Seven Warring States.
Shang means in Chinese has many diffrent meanings. So let me start off by saying, no one can really give you a name that sounds diffrent from your American name. i.e. If your name is Joe in english, then your name is Joe in Chinese, but just with a diffrent tone. What I mean by tone is the way your pronounce it. Let say you wanted to say "Hi" next thing you know you pronounce it differently and say "Screw you!" then suddenly you get a punch in the face. Chinese is a tone language, it's what makes Chinese the hardest language to learn to speak. If you don't learn Chinese as an infant you will never learn it in the proper way. SO thats why they has translations for traditional and simplified Chinese. Now the issue for a name. I am not sure how getting a Chinese name really works, but, I think, it usually has to do with becoming what you are named. Again for example, if you where named "Horse Shit" in Chinese then it might be that, You as beautiful and as graceful as a horse, but have a crappy attitude or smell.
Getting back on the subject, the "shang" I chose means "higher or high" I don't remember which one, I don't remember the other meanings for shang.
Shang = High
Now, Tirips and Doog are words spelled back words.
Tirips = Spirit
Doog = Good
So now put the name together......
Shang = High
Tirips = Spirit
Doog = Good
... it means High Spirit of Good! Now for those who want to know who is The "Shang Tirips Doog" you will have to wait.
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