Mind and Madness II

Hmm...... It's been a while since I posted something. To write something emotional.... And to find my emotional status.... Well here is something emotional (hopefully) and might give you a hint of what's going on in my head.



These lyrics are from the song Emu~For My Dear by Gackt.



The joy from my heart at our sudden meeting says"Maybe it'll be over before I know it..." those forebodings scare me (1)
And then I was gazing into your eyes
Without understanding anything
They're not forever changing, so how many phantoms,
Like memories and dreams, could you file away
And now I gazed into your eyes
Without changing anything
If I stretch out my hand, the smile I reach is fleeting
If I close my eyes, I want to hold
Your vanishing body once more in my arms
Because I can't forget that time, that place where we met...
dancing in the breeze, your body
Was being enveloped in light
I was only watching you
I was forever gazing into your eyes
Even now I watch only you
Without changing anything
If I stretch out my hand, the smile I reach is pained
If I close my eyes, I want to hold
Your vanishing body once more in my dreams
Because I can't forget that time, that place where we met...
Because I can't forget...

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(sorry if you don't understand just mindless rambling)

To tell the truth.... this song pretty much how I am feeling.... I just don't know why I am all of the sudden thinking of past wounds... Maybe it's my most recent wounds.
In a way I am glad I found the truth to the reasoning.... I just with she could have told me the truth herself. I am okay though. This stage will pass. Haha I am just thinking of all of them.... Reading back on my good friend's blog,"Why him and not me?" I can't express how much thinking those words, hurt. Geez My mind is turning into mush.... I can't think straight, my Creative writing is wilting away.... I can't spell. God help me, I am losing my English....