I Just Wanna Curl Up and Disappear.

Sometimes I just wish I could ask my friends the question, "Who am I to you?" I would want the most honest answer of course. I was told last month or so, that when I was gone for the Army, life for my family was easier. They didn't have to deal with my "Messes". And my family agreed to what was said. So sometimes, I wonder maybe I should just move out. I guess it would be easier for them at least. Where would I go though? Maybe it means that I need to improve myself. I have a lot of problems, no doubt about that. But usually people don't know about it, unless they live with me. Sometimes, I think it would be better if I just speaking unless spoken to. There is few people in particular I have a few questions for, but I think I already know the answers. Another topic comes to mind. All the people that I held close, what the hell happened? I never hear from them. It's so sad that as time moves on, the people that we once held close now are so far away. There is a lot of things I would like to rant about, but unfortunately there is probably somebody watching.