My... Melted Snow

"In last year's final days of snow, steadfast promises were made
I remember them as the snow melts and spills out of my hands" ~ Dir en grey - ain't afraid to die

These "steadfast" promises, like the snow, melted away.
All traces of the promises were slowly evaporated or consumed by the earth.
Desperately I tried to save what was left. All in vain.
With a broken spirit, I collapse on the ground.
I stared up to the heavens, and I see bits snow drifting down slowly.
With an outstretched hand I tried to reach for at least a little flake.
Even that I was denied.

Then I heard laughter, I turned my head.
At the distance, I see a woman and a man.
This woman! My...
I reached out for her, hoping she would see me. And come back to me.
Then the man pulled a box from his pocket.
The box began to glitter as he opened it...
In it was a promise.
Her face lighted up with awe.
The promises made to her was everything she wanted.
"You're my world, you make me complete...." she said.
Then in a matter of seconds, I saw their life unfolding before me.

Together they were happy, had children, raised these children, then these children had children.
I watched My... and that man grow old. Then they both laid in bed, closed their eyes together and died together.

Is it fair?
It wasn't meant to be.
Good for you My...

Fair Redemption

As I teetered at the edge of my faith, I remembered...
Your eyes, indigo.
Your skin, soft and warm.
I thought back to the day we become one.
I stared at this tungsten carbide band on my hand.
I saw your face. Smiling, crying tears of joy.
Oh how I wish to be with you.
As I leaned forward, a gale of wind blew me back.
I fell back ever so slowly...
I closed my eyes, crying, thinking how could I have failed?
Suddenly I heard your voice.
I opened my eyes and I saw you!
You were as bright as the sun!
You came down to me...
Telling me these words, "Angels descending, bring from above, echos of mercy and whispers of love. Live and know that I will always be watching over you."
Amazing Grace...
I love you.
I no longer felt the sharp sting in my chest.
I felt lighter, no longer was the weight of guilt on me.
I am free.
Thank you...
I'll see you soon my love, but I will live for you.