You Know That Feeling.

I wish you would seem more enthusiastic.
Why don't you sound more more genuine?
Why don't you show some emotion?
You sound like you don't care.
Can you say anything else than that?
Why don't you say more?

I honestly don't know why the way I communicate is insensitive. Did I say something?! Did I do something?! I am being who I am! Should I change who I am? Am I angry? Yes, but I can't stay angry. I just hope you know how deep your words can cut.

Peace Will Come

It's been a while since I written anything. But a lot of things have happen. I have a daughter now! She keeps us all very busy. It's stressful, sometimes I find myself a little annoyed. I know I will eventually develop better patience. However, my little girl isn't the main problem.
I am not sure what's been happening, but some of those whom I hold close just seem to be so cold. I sometimes feel unappreciated and unnoticed. There are times when they are hostile. And there are times when perfection is expected from me. All i have to say is I am not a perfect or good person, let alone a parent. I sometimes wish I knew what I was doing wrong. Sometimes I wish God would comfort me when I feel these things. I am still seeking God. Undoubtedly it's difficult at times. I also feel like a lot of my thoughts are foolish; because everyone seems to think so. It's so hard to express myself. I feel like I am alone sometimes. I often find myself daydreaming of a lot of certain things...