Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Counting Days

The day I join the army seems like far yet close future. Not sure if that made sense. I wonder if there will be anything that will change my plans for the army. Alas if nothing changes, then it's goodbye to everybody for 25 years, maybe longer. If I do happen to do my math right, I won't be getting out of the army until I am 45.
I wonder what will happen to everyone while I am gone? The things I will miss... Wedding's of friends? Seeing my friends' children? The funerals? So I suppose when I finally get out, I will find each one of friends. Give their children gifts, and place flowers on their graves. I will always remember my friends, but will they forget me? Will they make jokes about me, when they see a ninja movie? Will they remember me when they see another Asian boy with glasses? What if I die in the war? Will they place flowers on my memorial? As my fellow comrades hail the 21 Guns salute? Will they scatter my ashes?

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Root of Sin

In my work place, I see many demons.
I sell the demon Gluttony, and the costumers are devoured by it.
In trade for Gluttony, I am given Greed.
I carefully banish the demon into a cash register.
Then it is liberated only to buy more demons.
Every now and then, there is a human, who is is possessed by Pride.
This human openly display's the amount of Greed he has obtained.
Soon the demon lust is released, from another human seeing such wealth.
She removes her large jacket and steps forward to court the rich man.
She wears revealing shorts, and and extremely tight v-neck top.
It disgusts me, as I see those two later come out of the family bathroom together...
The woman's hair that once was sleek, now grimy.
The man's once sharp appearance, now ruined by an unfastened zipper.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Forever By My Side

My angels what is it that you feel, when I sin before your eyes?
Do you despise what I have become?
Each time I sin, I nail a cross to your Lord and Master...
Do you wonder why I ever do such horrendous acts?
And still I know all of you by name.
Does that mean you are still with me?
Will you forgive me?
Can you forgive me?
Please don't ever leave me.
I want all of you to accompany me to my afterlife.
Either to pray with me in Heaven.
Or punish me in Hell.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

I wonder.

My love, why do you keep silent?
Why do you talk to me when you need me?
You know I am insecure.
Why do you torture me so?
You know I want your company.
I feel so alone.
Why do you silence up?

My angel, I do not mean to be mute.
The reason you don't hear from me, is because I care for you.
I see myself as a pest.
Please forgive me, my heart aches to know that I am hurting you.
My heart longs for your company and your love.
Everyday, I am silent, I suffer as well.
I only wish for what is best for you.
I ask for you forgiveness.
I love you.
Do you love me?

And I woke up, this was all a dream. She loves another and now I am alone.